i can't find anybody as crazy as me.

TGIF

2006-08-25T14:23:00.000-07:00

i am so glad it is friday. i am tired, in more ways than one. i am tired because i don't get much sleep. i am tired from working out so much. i am tired from drinking so much. heh. and i am really tired of my biological clock (i think that is what it is) bugging the hell out of me. i dunno where this came from all of the sudden, but it makes me feel REALLY old.

i had a dream...

2006-08-23T07:17:00.000-07:00

...last night, and i think paris hilton was in it. this almost makes me ill.

i do know that i kept waking up during the night, and i finally was awake for good around 6:30. my brain won't slow down. i need something for anxiety. and before you tell me to just have a few drinks before bed, save your "breath" - i had two guinness and a shot of tuaca with some friends at lakewood landing. it was nice but it didn't help.

back to the grind...

2006-08-22T07:23:00.000-07:00

yep, i've missed a few days. i almost forgot i had a blog. hehe. jk. i must be in my usual beginning of the week funk or something, but lemme update you on my life.

i went to oklahoma to see the folks this weekend. it was nice to get away, but that drive sucks sometimes. on friday afternoon, around 4:30, it took me TWO HOURS to get to denton. so, it took 5 hours to get all the way home. that sucked. the dogs and i were all getting antsy. i hung out with the folks on friday night. saturday morning, dad and i went to the muscle car ranch swap meet. it was only 9 am, and i swear i was soaked with sweat in like 5 minutes. so, we didn't stay long or buy anything. sad to say, i think it's losing momentum lately. but, i still drool over curtis' 69 camaros. someday, cherry, someday...

anyway, after that, we went to okc to run errands, shop a bit, and eat at cracker barrel. yum. i have been craving those collard greens and that apple butter for weeks! :) (did you people know i was such a hick? lol) i also got some cool birkenstock thongs that i have been wanting. hush, and don't call me a hippie. i got the carribean ones, in black, so shut it. :)

on saturday night, i went with my best high school pal jen and her husband aaaron to the remington park casino. yeehaw. it wasn't that great - it was smokey, the band was scary (they sang that "ride on it, my pony, you're horny" song. yikes.), and it was depressing. but aaron won $2400! that was pretty cool. my new drink is vodka on the rocks with a splash of blood mary mix and a lime. i got that from haskell. it's damn good. maybe i already told you about that? i have a bad memory, as most of you know.

i am gonna get to work now. it's already tuesday. i'll write more later.

bloggy birthdays, EDT, IM, and you...

2006-08-17T09:36:00.000-07:00

first of all, happy birthday (actually a day belated) to pimplomat the blog! last night, on behalf of his plus one (my best friend), i took him/it a birthday cake (was really a chocolate muffin with a "magical" candle in it) to the asburne glen show at the cavern here in dallas. his band is darned good. i am no indie rock (or whatever they call it nowadays) critic (or even fan, really) by any means, but his band was the best by far. i don't deal with whiney boys very well. :)

woah, enough with the parenthesis. i think i am either getting sick or quite hungover today. thanks a lot vodka and one jagermeister shot. at least i stayed away from tuaca.

man, i usually really love my neighborhood (EDT/little mexico area), but damn! last night, i really thought i was going to get shot or beat up at the walgreen's. i was actually scared for a minute. but ya know, more than that, i was extremely irritated and annoyed. seriously, if i ever have kids (and you know i wanna), i swear to you that i WILL discipline then. i promise. i won't treat them as "oh so independent" like my puppies. i promise. what i see sometimes around here makes me ill. i know. i am not being specific, but i should be working.

i discovered meebo today. it pretty much rocks. i am an IM nerd. it's true. i almost had a panic attack this morning since i wasn't able to get onto yahoo im. trillian sucks. i decided that yesterday.

lesse...what else? i am going to lunch with haskell today. i really like that name. i'll elaborate more later. like how i leave you hangin'? lol.

could i be any more ADD today?

the madness

2006-08-16T08:38:00.000-07:00

strangely enough, i feel content today. i am surprised. i might get very sleepy soon. ever after 6 bloody marys and only 5 hours of sleep, i am wide awake at 6am. i don't get it. the dogs weren't even barking. it's like there is something in my brain that won't slow down. i am gonna be really cocky and go with the theory that my brain is just so full of knowledge, and some of it wants outta there. heehee.

tuesdays are a little better.

2006-08-15T06:40:00.000-07:00

i kept having bad dreams last night - was all about working in an office with people i didn't know, and it was like something horrible had happened to cut off all means of communication - no email, no phones, fires everywhere. it freaked me out, of course. it was one of those dreams that you aren't sure is NOT real when you wake up. i immediately started thinking - i need to start making plans with family and friends regarding what we'll do is this really happens! i know it sounds a bit paranoid, but you never know these days, folks. what does this dream mean? is it typical as of late in our world?

the bigwigs are here at work today. that makes me nervous. i wore long sleeves, just in case. they loved my desk setup. check it out in case you haven't seen it. i have added more stuff, but it still pretty much looks like this:

mondays suck.

2006-08-14T08:53:00.000-07:00

i had a pretty good weekend though. they are always too short. i woke up with tom petty's "the waiting" in my head on sunday morning. today, i woke up with cheap trick's "surrender" in my head. i have way too much going on in there.

TGIF

2006-08-11T08:19:00.000-07:00

first, i'd like to thank fungoir from australia for giving me my first "real" comment. :) he seems to be a very cool guy with VERY good musicial tastes. check him out.

yep, i missed posting yesterday. me and my baby dog cash were sick. we are feeling somewhat better today.

this weekend, i want to rest, relax, clean my house, maybe go to some garage sales, and go to jason's BACK TO SCHOOL party.

things i want

2006-08-09T14:06:00.000-07:00

1. one of these cool necklaces (i wish there were one that said ROCK ME LIKE A HURRICANE or something from my boys reo speedwagon.)

2. a paul frank bike

3. one of these hot purses that jen wrote about for daily candy

4. just about anything from leviticus jewelry, though i really like the BULLETPROOF necklace

5. this fancy dehydrator, for making my yummy beef jerky

i'll add more as i think of it, just in case you guys wanna buy me stuff sometime. :)

raw

2006-08-09T09:01:00.001-07:00

speaking of words, i thought i'd make note of one of my favorite words, as far as how words sound goes. yep, it's RAW. i don't really know why. but, i have a theory (so far only spewed to the best friend, d. heh). my theory is that "raw" is a type of onomatopoeia. you know, it kinda sorta imitates the sound (or maybe feeling, in a way) associated with an object or action. i know, i am reaching...but that's my theory. :)

compunction

2006-08-09T09:01:00.000-07:00

this was my word of the day today, from dictionary.com - it's absolutely perfect for me, a recovering southern baptist. hmmm.

compunction \kuhm-PUHNK-shuhn\, noun:

1. Anxiety or deep unease proceeding from a sense of guilt or consciousness of causing pain.
2. A sting of conscience or a twinge of uneasiness; a qualm; a scruple.

Not only were tears one means of prayer, according to Benedict, they were the only pure form: "We must know that God regards our purity of heart and tears of compunction, not our many words."
-- Tom Lutz, Crying

Yet, while Louise and Ruth and I and all our ilk are consumed by self-reproach, these two can recall not an ounce of compunction.
-- Rose Shepherd, "Fatal egg by pleasure laid", Independent, September 3, 1996

If they succeeded, however, Sicily would simply come under the authority of the new revolutionary government in Naples, a government that would feel no compunctions whatsoever about saddling the island with even more "stamp duties, official papers, and forced labor" than before.
-- James Fentress, Rebels and Mafiosi

I would reveal all without compunction because he is after all, my ex.
-- Karen Karbo, Generation Ex

change is good?

2006-08-08T12:36:00.000-07:00

who says? really? i just don't know. i think that i used to like it. but today, i got really pissy when i found out that instead of comcast, all us dallasites are getting stupid time warner cable. what is up with that? i don't really care enough about it to look too deep into it, but it sucks. and i don't like it. but, lord knows, i am NOT switching back to at&t DSL. yuck. do i have any other choices, people? tell me, dallas.

#3 of things i love that many hate

2006-08-08T10:10:00.000-07:00

i love the new all-fruit smoothies at the jamba juice. whatever though, i was getting these in the olden days (just asking for none of that creamy yogurt crap). i mean, what is the point of getting a smoothie with a bunch of fake, sugary crap added. anyways, i am in a bad mood, so suck it...just like trebek.

oh, funny pictures

2006-08-07T13:53:00.000-07:00

i like this one. i saw it on somebody's myspace profile page today. :)

monday, monday...

2006-08-07T07:23:00.000-07:00

well, it's monday again. this weekend, i:

learned that i have some of the craziest, fun, outgoing, interesting, kind, and unique friends in the world.
enjoy all of said friends at various places, including r's bday party.
had 3 dates (2 different guys). the friends call me a serial dater. i just call me social. :)
got some crazy shoes at best friend d's secret store.
learned that i like poweraid better than gatorade.
heard that chocolate milk is supposed to cure hangovers, but i haven't tried it yet.
decided that i am going to buckle down with work and working out this week. (we'll see how this goes. it'll help if i'll cut down on the dates, i think.)
had one of the best screwdrivers ever. it was made with fresh-squeezed oj. yum.
drank about 57 more screwdrivers (heh...not really THAT many, i don't think.).

#2 of things i love that many hate

2006-08-03T12:41:00.001-07:00

peanut butter, jelly, and cheese (think kraft singles) sammiches - yum. i want one right now.

#1 of things i love that many hate

2006-08-03T12:41:00.000-07:00

yes, i love the little clown baby from the ad for some new mcdonald's that opened in india. he's adorable. i don't find him creepy at all. i want to kiss him on the cheek. :)

i don't think i knew that.

2006-08-03T12:26:00.000-07:00

i don't think i knew that. does this phrase make sense? i used it today, and then i second-guessed myself. yeah, i think it makes sense, especially with me. i am a bit crazy, and half of the time i am hungover. also, i have a bad memory. so, yep, i think it makes sense. thanks for clarifying that. ;)

i have a feeling people are going to think my blog is very stupid and not well-written, especially for a writer. but, ya know what? i don't give a crap. i'm doing this instead of stupid live journal. heh.

break the tie that binds.

2006-08-03T11:31:00.000-07:00

i am swamped at work today, yet i feel the need to blog. heh. i had a great date last night with a law school student. i NEVER date guys who are "smarter" than me. i kinda like it. he said he had a good time and called me sexy, so we'll see what happens. he told me all about night law school. i am jealous, envious, and impressed.

i just thought of this. ya know what? ya know why i never date guys for very long? it's ME. i actually could be, i mean. i know they are usually psycho, but still. i am sure i don't help things any. :) i sabotage relationships. yep, it's true. that's what they tell me. i dunno why. but, oh, i just remembered: i am starting sessions with a counselor dude tomorrow afternoon. maybe he'll figure me out. do i want to be figured out? hmmm...

i love you, man...

2006-07-31T12:35:00.001-07:00

i thought you might like these sites. i look at them everyday.

www.overheardinnewyork.com
www.overheardintheoffice.com

monday, monday

2006-07-31T12:35:00.000-07:00

i feel like i have too much going on and that i have a horrible memory, so i am starting a blog. yep, i am jumping on the bloggy bandwagon, folks. and remember, all criticism will be deleted. i get enough of that in my "real" life, mmmkay? :)

well, today started out with me spending $6.66 at jamba juice. yep, my mom instilled some deep-seated superstition (amongst other things) into this brain.